living with pain

Once we decided that we had to return back from HEC to India, I had felt a stab of real pain, of disappointment, of fear of what lied ahead. I lived with that pain for some 3 months or so. It became a pain body of its own ( borrowing a term from Power of Now), it started dictating terms to me. Most of my interactions were based on fear. My life became shallow, very shallow, almost stupid. And then one day I had enough of it, so I let it be. I accepted that there were lot of unknowns in my life and lot of bitter sweet experiences lied ahead, and so I just felt it as it was. What happened next was exactly what was specified in Power of Now. Its hold on me gradually lessened and I started living more freely. I came to Goa, joined this company. I was told that people mocked me here. I just let it be. After some time, people started respecting me. After some more time, I was anointed the leader and people accepted me as their leader. Am I at peace here? My truthful answer would be both yes and no. I love my work here and it reflects in my work quality here. I still don't have money to repay loans, my lenders are getting fidgety and I feel bad about that. And that hurts some time.
I have to make a complete payment towards my home loan this month. And in 3 months of time, I have to repay my loan off one lender. All my hopes rest on that elusive bank loan. Imagine living every day with the hope of getting that loan and managing fears of getting rejected for the same. That stress, that pain gets reflected in all other aspects of one's life, eventually manifesting as some sort of disease. I am right now treading the same path and feeling the same stress. Will Eckhart's suggested exercises help me in managing this phase without causing any grievous impact on me or my health? Let us find that out.